Regret?
Or reminiscent joy..

Falling apart
Over you
The sun
May shine
But I
see only
The darkness

Attraction

Attraction, play your crooked game
The way we feel is not the same
What I try, I try in vain
Wrack myself with torture pain
Reluctantly I change the name
Change the face within the frame
Another chase I can't attain
And so it goes again and again

Ooooooooh, i finded some old stuffs #2

Wandering through life as a lone wanderer
An enemy in the thick of it
Sometimes walking is better than running
Tripping seems to take the fun out of the whole thing

He walks up the stairs and turns the mantle-piece
There he spies the train wreckage of his life
Memories he would rather forget
Wouldn't it help if we started to live in reality


Life isn't some sort of game
You can't reload when you mess it up
What you do in the present has consequences
Why can't you just realize the fact of that

You think you can leave and things won't change?
If you could just see your mistakes
Is there not an eraser?
Love is the eraser of life

Ooooooooh, i finded some old stuffs #1

We sit so close so close together
Things couldn't be further from the truth
We live in separate worlds
Separated by alienating feelings
Attempt in progress.. it's no use

Why can't things work out between us
Caught between feelings and pressure
Fear of denial or fear of rejection
Stalking you is a joy and a privilege

Truth hurts, but the thought of losing you
Consumes even that

Honesty,
when you
share the
truth with me.

It's a small world that we live in
Shake this globe
Let the sprinkles fill the sky
Is it snow
That covers the ground
with flakes of laughter?
Sprinkle my day with happiness
Lest I be consumed,
Swollowed whole
by repetition's shackles

I am a living, dying contradiction

Vulnerabubble

I'm a non-committer,
The only place I dare to dream
Is the only place I've ever been
Don't change a thing
Don't take a risk
What can be more comforting
Than this sweet bliss

Love isnt worth the risk
Better to forgo happiness
than to become undone

You burst the bubble
You shatter my defenses
Shards, all that remain
You render me
Defenseless

This is my theme song for the 2nd half of the year

Coldplay - Shiver

So I look in your direction
But you pay me no attention, do you?
I know you don't listen to me
'Cause you say you see straight through me, don't you?

But on and on
From the moment I wake, to the moment I sleep
I'll be there by your side; just you try and stop me
I'll be waitin' in line, just to see if you care

Oh…
Did you want me to change?
But I'd change for good
And I want you to know that you'll always get your way
I wanted to say…

Don't you shiver
Shiver
Sing it loud and clear
I'll always be waiting for you

So you know how much I need you
But you never even see me, do you?
And is this my final chance of getting you?

And on and on
From the moment I wake, to the moment I sleep
I'll be there by your side; just you try and stop me
I'll be waiting in line, just to see if you care, if you care

Oh…
Did you want me to change?
Well I'd change for good
And I want you to know that you'll always get your way
I wanted to say…

Don't you shiver
Don't you shiver
Sing it loud and clear
I'll always be waitin' for you

Yeah I'll always be waiting for you
Yeah I'll always be waiting for you
Yeah I'll always be waiting for you, for you
I will always be waiting…

And it's you I see but you don't see me
And it's you I hear so loud and so clear
I sing it loud and clear
And I'll always be waiting for you

So I look in your direction
But you pay me no attention
And you know how much I need you
But you never even see me

I'm Sorry

I can tell you what I've heard
I can show you what I've seen

But I can't make you believe.

A Promise

We've come too far
to end so soon.
The spork that was
not quite the spoon.

Upon a lonesome week
One month post June,
On the clearest night
With the fullest moon,

Gaze from your window,
I'm coming soon!

Stuck in the same boat

We are stuck in the same boat
"There's plenty more fish in this sea"
But you keep pushing me down, I drown.
You're tugging at the end of my line
Scissor blades embrace translucent twine
Is there any hope left for me?

Some may find love
As a hassle free package,
No threat to wings up above
But you leave me clutching on to a fleeting hope
And afraid that I'm destined to fall

Don't think I can stay here forever
Don't think I could wait for that long.
Will I still be here
In a couple more years?
I'll pray it won't take that long.

POP

Still feel the loss, still feel the pain
Your face that won't be seen again
But even though your presence gone
The faith you had still carries on

A prayer

Help us to make
the most of everyday.
Don't know when You will
take us away.

To reach those lost.
To live for You.
And make a difference
in all we do.

What you are

Been feeling insecure
for reasons I'm unsure.
But this one thing I'm sure:
I'm searching for the cure.

Man in the background

When he's not around
My presence can be found
When he arrives
I fade into the background

Jealousy,

Jealousy,
When you have a friend who
Has everything you have ever wanted
And throws it all way.

Ode to the days of yore!

Have you ever wished
To go back in time?
When you were so naive
and could count responsibilities
On the back of your sleeve.

Oh the times of careless embrace,
When living was for living
and seeing that smile
dash across your face.

But innocence is lost
Times have changed.
Before you know it
18 years have aged.

I look back at those days
with a touch of jealousy.
I know that all the mistakes
All belong to me.

But if you could live
In an eternity of childhood,
Would you trade what you know now
And stay there for good?

You're out of my league
I'm out of my tree
It seems the harder i seek
The less i find

I fade into the background

Some older poetry shtuffs

We didn't even dance..
I didn't get the chance
to tell you the way i feel

It's like a dream come true
A dream of me and you
But now I have the chance
Just shutup, lets dance!

To express to you in words
The complicated emotions
That i feel for you

Surely you know the way I feel about you
I only want to dance if you know you want to

I look around to see the outline of your face
But you've dissapeared and left me without a trace